Craps and Thoughts

fun fun fun joy joy joy

2009-09-12T02:38:00.000+08:00

havin fun is always nice but learn to balance it up or youll get carried away! always remember that

Death

2009-08-28T22:17:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I just wished I could just fall asleep and do not wake up after that like just die in my sleep. It would be nicer then to suffer or poison yourself to death I guess. There isnt much to live for now a days as people tend to ditch and most people have their own group already and that lessens your chance to hang out with them as you tend to be the outcast and you'll feel like an "alien" with them and that destroys your time and day hanging out with them and that makes you feel like oh screw this shiet its better I stay home and listen to music.

But well get up and look at it more positively, go out and enjoy yourself rather then sulking like a bitch! Your old enough to make decisions on your own and stop sulking as sulking wont bring you anywhere and its obvious! I might not believe in the all mighty GOD but I somehow do believe in fate. So I believe when its your time to die, its your time to die. No other reasons to support or change the facts.

If you have to die young, then die young dont whine or sulk about it. Think about other peoples life your gonna put in trouble as life is a sucking time of happiness and happiness only last a while so when you have that momment or second ENJOY IT TO ITS FULLEST as after that its back to life as you know it, the dull and boring days

Dont give a chance if you dont want to

2009-08-28T22:05:00.002+08:00

Why do some people like to give you false hope that theres an actual chance that something might come up or come upon. If you feel that he/she doesnt have a chance then screw it, dont bother contacting them at all as you know they feel something about you and you know slight changes can have a huge effect on the invidual. So dont try to act friendly and make empty promises and say that you'll meet up with that person and in the end you dont even wanna reply a single message.

So in conclusion if you think that you dont wanna hurt the person then DONT TALK TO HIM OR HER just let them live their own life and live your own as well. Keep on hurting the person wont really pleasurise you would it? Unless of course your some sadist then continue hurting people you heartless bitch.

But oh well I guess thats life some people remain bitches in the end and all we can do is to ignore the fact or embrace it and I choose to embrace it! Screw this shit, I wanna live my life as well so stop talking to me if you dont wanna hurt me or yourself

God Speed
cheers

What is what?

2009-08-24T21:43:00.002+08:00

What is what? who is who? I'm confused by this kinda questions sometimes. Its like I dont have an answer and people start backfiring at me and such and im too lazy to give back answers. and there you have it, I have no idea whatsoever on what I'm writting on and that seriously stinks big time!

Anyhow its puasa time for those muslims and Raya is around the corner so are my mid terms and death is around the corner as well for me. Lets just ignore that as its time to try to change and turn over a new leaf. it might be kinda hard for me but I guess thats all in the mind! as I believe in anything you do, the mind and brains are the major components that are holding and separating you apart from your goals and dreams.

not much to bitch about now as im pretty calm which is good for now but yeah sooner or later the bitchyness will come back and KABOOM SHASHA. and by the way life is all rite for the momment as you can see im not bitchy! eheh self jokes but if you wanna laugh go ahead if not then its your own decision no one asked you to laugh, ah the bitchyness might come back eheh.

m getting a lil lifeless by playing Poker on FB but that will stop soon and thats all for now.till the bitching momments begin.

cheers,
the biggest loser

WHAT A DAY!

2009-08-21T21:35:00.004+08:00

WHAT A DAY! the hell is going on? damn blur in the classroom, can't even asnwer simple questions given by the lecturer. what a loser. probably I'm not paying enough attention, probably I'm just playing a fool, probably this, probably that SCREW probabilities! allthough it exist, im not trusting with probabilities anymore, its just a sick son of a bitch thinking there might be other ways and such where therer isn't at all. its hard to wake up and change immedietly but I guess if you put your mind into it, everything is actually made way way easier then it looks.

Bad day at class, head on to a DREAM which I woke up thinking I was heading towards class or something else but it was actually the alarm which I set to watch a drama. DEEP in COMA sleep which scared the day lights out of me, because I've never slept and woke up feeling like that before. sometimes its scary that you just wake up and you've forgotten what happened or whats gonna happen after that, it takes time to heal but oh well.

was on a bitching mode earlier on but I guess I'm all cool now. Dang it eh, could have posted at least 3 blogs I bet, but oh well guess theres always a tomorrow. Now just feeling normal. till then when I have another feeling

the great Loser
Cheers

Be the beast you have to be

2009-08-21T13:22:00.003+08:00

I bet everyone has their downfall at life, then after that they question themself whether its good or bad to do those things again.. well to me if you wanna do it GO AHEAD and do it. Think about it wisely or whatever you wanna call it, the only person whose actually stopping you is yourself, and by stopping yourself, your actually wasting the time which you can go on and do the action then just having tons of thoughts in your head and your the only one who can see what you wanna do.

So what I'm saying is JUST FREAKING DO IT ALREADY! SO WHAT IF THE CONSEQUENCES are bad!? So what if your being criticised! SO WHAT! Like life doesnt have its bad days,bad outlooks and critics? So what makes you the different person by doing so? your looks? your body figure? SCREW THAT! just do what you've gotta do.

This is something out from the topic but I'mma state on it anyways. Why some people cant just keep things to themself!? Are everything ment to be told to others? If so then probably your the most honest person in this world. If you know somethings are ment no to be told or heard by others then do so. Think of other peoples feelings when you say those things for example what the person did the other night. Most people will go " oh that whore danced and maked out with another person" SO? Are you the person whose too envious to do those kinda things or just a big mouth who cant shut the hell up and have to go tell everyone about it? Maybe somethings are sacred or somethings people are doing when they are not fully aware of it. And if one day you did that something, do you want others to know as well?

What I'm stating here is just think, if one fine day that happens to you.. how would you feel if the closest people to you knows about it? Just because something bad happens which you dont wanna see happens to you, you must tell everyone immedietly? If your those person then just go ahead and tell evryone what you did last night as well as it might be rather more interesting and more things to bitch about then only one topic. The message I'm trying to send across is, just think what your saying at times and if its a slip of a toungue then just change the flow of the conversation. But if you think its all right to say it then do it, because I think most people can control the outcomes of their mouth and for those who cant, for those who just need to TALK OUT LOUD then fine,say this " SCREW YOU!!" I dont need you anymore as its pretty obvious you dont care about my feelings so why the hell should I give a shit about yours and after that just move on with your life and please don't whine about it :P

UP YOURS NOSY BITCHES!
Cheers

why do people criticise so quickly

2009-08-19T10:56:00.003+08:00

I know its normal now a days that people criticise people but why so? why must it happen, why cant a bunch or group of people just talk about other stuff then just criticising them? its happens as fast as when you walk out of a room, and the immediet effect after that they start what they so called bitching about you. so what if the person is a little slow or acknowledges that your doing something but just tend to ignore it as he/she feels better if he/she doesnt talk?

sometimes I feel its best that just to let the person enjoy and such rather then criticising and such and try to feel how if it backfires at you? its hard and it happens but lets all be more civilised and try to criticise or talk about the person less, but I dont blame if it happens as its human nature after all but sometimes just try to think in the perspective of the person whose actually listening and feeling it, and how if it back fires on you? some people can take it but not everyone!

lifes a bitch as we know it, lately my life has been a bitch but I'm not gonna complain about it as I rather live my life, hence starting from today whatever happened happened and what I can do about it is either forget it and act as nothing happen or I can continue to whine about silly little incidents and get pumped up for no apparent reasons what so ever.

till then ,
cheers

Love this song

2009-08-17T15:31:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtub e.com/watch?v=32GZ3suxRn4

Dance dance DANCE!

2009-08-13T17:18:00.000+08:00

Back and I'm flat. So getting mixed feelings now and I guess when your feeling down all you need is music and dance the night out till your flat out. Use those sad energy and compress them into DANCE MOVES! All though it will be tough but just it a shot. Am in the feeling of flying high or doing something extraordinary but in stuck at a place where the boundries of flying and such are limited and there arent any bungee jumping and such.

Am starting to appreciate music more and I'm not regretting loving music! I guess the slogan " No music no life" has entered into me and I LOVE MUSIC! Not only to dance with but to just sit down and listen to when there is nothing much to do. So with music, life does have a meaning. I'm not sure what im writting about because I'm in the mood to DANCE.

Besides that it was a solid day today. Went for breakfast and then hit some balls at pool had a blast there and other than that nothing else productive. Till I do something productive then I shall post another message. Dance dance dance till you drop! Dont be shy about your moves as everyone needs to learn and improve as not everyone is perfect in everything they do

2009-08-12T20:10:00.000+08:00

Hey so whats up, this is the first time i'm writting on this blog have a little experience on blogging due to the class assignment I had two years ago but apparently I've forgotten everything about them so its roughly a new start. I've been told to do double spacing from my friends when I was writting stuff on my blog as it seems that I write alot and it gets pretty hard to read as everything is crumbled up together as one anyways just rejoined college once more for some splendid time and experience that I go through every semester.

I'm currently doing Business at TBS but I dont really like it as Accounting and such arent really my
major subjects and its awesomely dull and boring for me but what matters now a days is the
certificate, I guess. Ah, I guess the blues are hitting me now a days and before I forget I wanna
say that I'm sorry to everyone that I've hurt intentionally and unintentionally, am really sorry to have
hurt you in the past and I hope I'm forgiven and if I'm not its all right, as we've gotta move on in
life so I hope you'll have a better life ahead and such. God speed!!

Okay now back to writting random thoughts. About the blues hitting me.. I bet everyone has that
momment before right.. where you just sit and listen to slow and soft music and you fall into the
momment where you reimburse your thoughts and memories of what happened? Haha a lil
too emotional but yeah thats something thats happening to me at the momment.. just enjoying
slow music and having thoughts and such. Feelings can be good and bad at times,
I bet everyone knows that. As much as we want to enjoy the good feelings there are no doubts
that bad feelings will pop up instantly after the good feeling and nothing good last that long
or am I just being a little negative about this? Who knows as everyone has their own thoughts and
such so this question is a lil subjective but anyways the thing that I hate about feelings are
that it can fade quickly or slowly and you have no control what so ever on it! Which honestly
it sucks big time! Hmm I think no one really cares in the end how you think as thats why
thoughts are kept to yourself and no one can read your thoughts.

What I like to do.. is to DANCE! Slow or fast it doesnt matter, it might be silly but I just realised that
if you have no one to talk to, music can talk to you. This is coming from a happy go lucky guy or
thats what they all say about me. Been liking this song slow dancing in a burning room... doesnt pay
any resemblance to me what so ever but its a nice music to just dance to or stooooneee!

I guess thats all for today as my thoughts are dying to the unfaithful night time of my life, till then thou
shall write something when my minds alive again